in the end of a desert there a place where i can find peace

its been a while..

yup it is...

i take time.. to free my self from the stuff that makes me hanging. But now i am free as everyone knows whats within me.

once in a while drive till end of the desert and a lovely place. I said i want to see the sunset before the end of year 2011..yup and i did see it. in fact its a lovely and breath taking scene that i cannot imagine.

Sun is bigger in the place where i am

and its amazing to see it falling from the sky.

The breeze is still so cold and i am in a deep thoughts what life will bring me.

Yes ive been through though time of my life and for the fact t

hat I am still standing.

Thanks God for this beautiful life.

Acceptance, understanding and respect. This is what ive learn a lot.

Journey is still not finished, yet i am just the middle of my life story.

Somehow in someway I know the true

people who can keep me through thick and thin and no matter what happen in my life still they keep there arms open.

Gladly and grateful that I am truly blessed with people who will keep me for my entire life.

lovin life, i still breath!

do i need?

Why Pray?

5 "I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing. - john 15:5

There are three reasons to pray: for God's benefit, for your benefit, and for the benefit of others.

To Benefit God

Just as earthly parents enjoy talking with their child, our Heavenly Father enjoys hearing from you.

Also, God desires certain things done on Earth, but He has delegated authority to mankind. Through our requests, God can justly intervene in earthly situations and bring His will to pass. So, praying in line with God's Word benefits God.

To Benefit You

Prayer is communication with God. It includes listening, discussion, and giving thanks -- not just asking for things.

Relationship requires communication. Your relationship with the Lord will never grow without communication.

Time spent in prayer helps you stay tuned-in spiritually -- remaining sensitive to God. Prayer keeps you "connected" with God. It helps keep your focus on God and how great He is.

Prayer is a way of humbling yourself and is the opposite of doing things by yourself. Receiving direction from God is the greatest help you can get. If you fail to seek God's help, you are headed for trouble, because the devil sets traps to destroy you.

Also, talking with God forces you to honestly face your situation -- for you know you cannot fool God.

To Benefit Others

All around us, people are in great need. Through prayer we can appropriate heavenly help on their behalf.

God can do more in one minute than you can do in a lifetime

Overcome

"He who overcomes shall inherit all things, and I will be his God and he shall be My son. - rev 21:7

When im reading this passage i get very excited...im just one in a million who experience struggle, problem, etc and whatever we call it. And we wonder why God doesnt"just do sumtin"! ..like tht.

But as i see we are created with heart and mind..and a freewill too.. if fromt he very beginning He is not just then He should not create heart and mind for us, nor give us freewill if He is the one who will handle all of this...Well He giving us an oppurtunity..isnt it.?....

HE is our guidance and audience too! =) HE sees all thing and small things we do. HE even thrilled when we overcome..When we excel HE is the first one smiling!

But do you think? hmmmm how about when we fail? what about when we didnt even reach and achieve what we need to do? and miss the opportunity? I can FEEL He still LOVE US. And how? if He doesnt LOVE us HE will not give any chances at all. HE will not give comfort.


How can we overcome? then? whats next?


"For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world -- our faith.-
Who is he who overcomes the world, but he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God?"
- john 5:4-5"

Concluded that overcome is by believing! when was the time I believe? did i stop believing thats why i didnt achieve it?

We should start believing, and if you do so, then dont stop..Chase the best worthwhile of our life time.

could it be blank?

i wonder i cant even start a thing on this big canvas....anyone can help me ^_^
its a bit big, but its a good quality of canvas...ready to be spilled by colors...
let be the right mood takes place so i can begin.



since the time i have this big canvas i think i should make it by heart.
but do u think it would be beautiful if i only use one color? yes im using only black....
black the symbolize sadness, well as for me let us see the result of this artpiece done by art with heart..

wahhhhhh im alive!

im still alive...!

its been a while since i put my fingers into this space where i can find all freely at hand...tsk tsk..uhm but here am i..=)

one thing we need to do -- forgetting everything which is past, learn from it and stretching forward to what lies in front of me, with my eyes fixed on the goal I push on, press on, and forward to go. Chasing every worthwhile second of life.....^_^.....so keep on movin coz i was there!

just this morning while doin my work i write a song...well its on a note pad..maybe ill post it on this coming days..

y do u

i have a muslim officemate ask me..why do we exist and this is my answer..I admire this muslim people because of their passion of praying many times a day..

y do u exist?


y human exist?


y of living?

didn't you ask urself------the Y?
y life so not that easy to understand?
y this things happens to me?
y life is so unfair?
y i need to do this? to do that?
y i feel my life non-sense?
y i felt hurt?

y do people die?

the WHY, WHAT, WHERE & HOW questions

didn't you ask urself------the W?
what happen after i attain all my goals?plans?my success?
wHERE can i find real happiness in my life?
what is the picture future for me?
when will all my suffering will be finish?
what will it be if i do this?do that?

whats next????????


didn't you ask urself------the H?
how can i make my life worth?
how will i do all my things effective?
how do i do now?

no matter what question it is applied in you,
why still people feel something's missing in there life?

do YOU really know YOUR purpose?

Yes! of course everyone has a purpose. We work to gain money, to pursue our dreams, to help our parents, to support our love ones. Lots of purpose right.???..but behind all of this purposes their still the main purpose why YOU, ME and all human is in existance...Face the fact that is true, not a fallacy that we are here for nothing...right?

The FACT of our PURPOSE

God created mankind primarily because He desired to have a family. In order to truly fellowship with God, man had to have freedom of choice. Unfortunately, man used his freedom to rebel against God and fell from fellowship with God.

When man fell he came under the dominion of the devil, because he followed the devil's suggestion to disobey God. With this came spiritual death and a new nature which was selfish. Man became self-centered -- actually worshiping himself by making every decision based on what was best for him. The result of this selfishness is evident all around us: horrible misery and suffering.

God is just and obeys His own laws. Justice requires that rebellion be punished. To be just, yet allow mankind to come back into fellowship with Him, God Himself came to earth as the man Jesus Christ. He suffered a horrible death as the substitute for all mankind, taking the punishment we deserved for our sins. Because of what Jesus did, God could justly forgive all sin, and open a way for all people to come back into fellowship with God.

Jesus Christ Himself is the only way to God. Only by receiving Jesus can we enjoy the benefits of His sacrifice, which sets us free from sin and its judgment.

Our life on earth now is testing and preparation for eternity, to determine if we qualify to be in God's family. This is not determined by human beauty or achievement, but by our willingness to submit to the lordship of Jesus Christ. When we submit to Jesus, He begins changing us into what He wants us to be.

When you come to Jesus, He changes you inwardly. As you continue following Jesus and obeying His Word, your inward change will continue manifesting outwardly, causing people and circumstances around you to change also. God will continue working in and through you until you become like Jesus Christ in your thoughts and actions, as well as your nature.

Positively that the purpose of life is the best gift given.

WE are not alone --

how can I begin? Let see.... think... think... and think..
What makes me write again well its my best friend..I thought no one needs the words and writting of my hand..Then she said to me "bess my blog kaba today? i want to read it.."
A big smile on face and said I will write again..Not to those people who just saying I will read it, but the truth no extra time to glance on the content..But i will write to the one who really needs my thoughts and share my stories based from the fact of life.

My world is different now..
Not the old days, where I can see and be near to everyone I love..
My world is different now..
Not the old days, where I can talk and share directly what I want to share..
My world is different now..
Not the old days, where I can let myself feel at home all the time..

In a while I fell in pit of loneliness. I kept inside the sadness..

Realization sink into me..But this distance and time makes me realized who the people around me who will stay no matter what..Who will not changed no matter what..
Like what the world said not all things are constant..People can promise, all the things, good things, all the best in the world..But apparently in the end you cannot see this person anymore. And your left behind...

"We live by Faith, not by sight". 2 cor 5:7
one of the most favorite verse im holding into..We need to keep all those people who really stayed for us..And to extend patience for those who not stayed.

Im grabbing all the faith that I can have..Not just for me alone for the people around me..I exist because of this people..(Bess we exist because of our family, friends and God) If one person turn his/her back to you..Remember God wants us to be happy..He is our father.

Faith is released through word..
MATTHEW 17:20
20 So Jesus said to them, "Because of your unbelief; for assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, `Move from here to there,' and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you. - this verse if makes me a believer of impossible things..^_^

If we have faith -- we will do something -- according to HIM. We will speak!

Faith and authority are exercised through words. All we receive from God must be received by faith. Romans 5:2 & Galatians 3:14 So, you will only receive God's blessing in line with the words we speak.

What you say is what you believe. Or, we could say, you believe what you say.Kind of confusing.. Right?

If you want to know what someone truly believes, just listen to what they say -- especially when they're under pressure. Then the truth will come out.

MATTHEW 12:34-35
34 "Brood of vipers! How can you, being evil, speak good things? For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.
35 "A good man out of the good treasure of his heart brings forth good things, and an evil man out of the evil treasure brings forth evil things.

Our mouth speaks forth what is in your heart. So to bring forth good things in our life, you need to speak good words. To speak good words, we must first be put into your heart in abundance. You know what that means. Get into the Bible and get it into you. ^_^

"With faith, nothing is impossible. With faith is put into action by the words we speak. The words we speak are determined by what we put into my inner being.